Realizations. I'm tired. Exhausted of caring more for other peoples feelings than for my own. There's no knowing where the balance lies, and I'm through with living far off on one side or the other. I need to start thinking about myself and taking care of me before trying to help everyone else. I must start following my own heart for at the end of the day, the only person Ill have to answer is myself. I confess to you that I have grown so accustomed to putting others happiness before my own. I always felt the need to compromise what I know was best for me just to make someone other than myself, content. Never would I claim to be proud of this. I'm not satisfied with being such a pushover when it comes down to these kinds of things. I'm going to try and put my own emotions first, right where they should belong. The problem? Its hard. Its very difficult and it really hurts. Most of the time, what I want will never align with what someone else wants. As much as I want to keep others happy, I deserve to be happy as well. Ive finally decided that Im going to do something about it, although it may be a bit bittersweet. C'est la vie Baby !
Every new year is not a year for change, every day is.
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Homie, dont play that. Ha, but whatever, you are such a joke boy. And you don't even know. JASKLDFHSKJLDF; EFF YOU ! Lies wont take you anywhere. I hope that Coach made a mistake. Mwuahaha !
