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How did the two of us ever come to be this way. I don't see what I've done over these few months to make you act this way. And you know, that hurts. I don't mean to be getting all touch on this subject, because matter of fact, I know better than to let something like this hurt me the way it is, but the only reason it is, is because you used to be a true friend of mines, and how you found the way to just drop me as a friend because of something so small is what has been killing me the most. You find the best ways to avoid me, like when I come to talk to our friends, you feel the urge to leave because I'm there. Just give me the time of day to tell me what I ever did to you. What have I said about you, what have I not done for you as a friend to make you treat me this way. You make it seem as if Ive fallen off the face of the planet and you know what, since you cant bring yourself around to face the facts, Ill just do it for you. Ill cut off communication, completely with you because I'm just done with getting hurt like this from people. You were the one that I let in, the one I trusted with my words, but surely, you've lost those privileges. And please don't come back to me a few days from now, trying to act like your one of my friends, you're nowhere near that now. Everyone has seen the way you treat me, and they continuously told me to just let you go, they told me it was straight up disrespectful, on your part that is. Get your vision checked and be sure that it’s 20/20 because you seem to be blind to the things that are happening right in front of you. And so now I’m here questioning myself, what did I ever do to have to hurt like this when you’re the one playing off like everything’s alright? At least you’ve shown me who my true friends are. You have pushed me and made me an even stronger person now that you’re no longer here. Thank you.

If one day you realize that I haven’t talked to you in a while, just remember you were the one who pushed me away.

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You know what confuses the shit out of me is the way you think. Those several months when people were bagging on you, and your dignity was going down the drain, not once did I question your integrity. Nope. Never. Because I believed in you boy. I knew that you were better than what they were saying. I guess I was wrong, because when it was my turn to take on the bullshit, you left me in the dirt. You let them say what they wanted to, and not once did you consider to stand up for me but rather you agreed with them, questioning everything. Saying that you were confused about who I had become. So tell me, why the hell am I still trying to keep our friendship strong?