thirtyfive.

Okay well let’s hit the ground running, and I’ll help you get up to speed. What you said today, yes, that craziness, to tell you the truth; it’s knocked my heart out of its orbit. Ever since that moment, my heart has been banging so loud with such intensity, like a marching band at the Fourth of July parade, I miss you so much. The thought of you jangles around my heart like an electromagnetic field. I saw you today, we talked, we hugged, we laughed, we danced away, but it’s been so long since we were, okay. While pretending as if there is nothing wrong, here we lay, every night before we sleep, going through denial, thinking that everything will be okay, hoping it will work out on its own. It won’t. Please understand that. It’s not going to unless we work it out one step at a time, I want that more than anything, and even you know that. I know you do; it shows right through your radiant smile. You really drive me crazy. Wacko. Bonkers. Insane. You give me the need to scream. I want to scream so loud that it sounds like a car crash, hoping that maybe it will hit you; maybe it will make you realize how much I care. You do something to me, and yes it makes me scared, but it also makes me flamboyant, curious, dazzled, at the same time. I love every imperfection and disease of your character, every single flaw. I am in love with the way you continue to ignore my screaming and pleading, it makes me want to fight for you. I love how you never fail to ignite my dreams, and you are always successful in putting that corky smile on my face and no matter what, I will love you, care for you, cry for you, dream of you. Don’t you worry about a thing.

Only time will tell;
BTW: Finally finished, Everything Has To Stop: Teach Me !