onehundredthirtyfive.

Shihan be the shit; "I want a love like, me thinking of you thinking of me type love. But I’m not talking about the type of love that Shihan was talking about in his def jam poetry type love. I’m talking about my type love. The type of love that makes you sick and good at the same time and sometimes, you won’t even be able to differentiate either, but to still feel good at the end of the day type love. The type of love where, you can spend a whole day without each other, being with your other kinds of love. And when I say other kinds of love, I mean the loved ones like your family, friends, and everyone else that ever mattered before this love came along kinda other love. The type love that isn’t selfish with you even doing all that because you know that at the end of the day, you’ll get to be with this type of love you’ve been wanting and hoping for all your life. The type of love that isn’t afraid of voicing its own opinion because being too much alike is just boring. The type of love that still lets me be my own individual rather than being some kinda type love where you can’t breath without each other type love. Because honestly, I’m my own kinda person. I don’t need someone telling me that I make them complete because that kinda thing just sounds stupid. I need my own piece of mind. You’re going to be you and I’m going to be me. Being together shouldn’t “complete” us. Us joining forces just makes the both of us better type love. We don’t need that mushy gushy, corny type love. BUT! I don’t want that type love where you forget you’re even in a relationship type love because all of what you’ve been working at to keep around just falls apart. I want the type of love that gets you, that surprises you, that makes you laugh, that makes you sing, and that has you learn a different side of you type love. In a good way. An everlasting love that isn’t too much. The type of love where you’d rather NOT be on the phone with each other hours at a time because you’d rather be out doing adventurous things with each other type love. A love that doesn’t let you forget what was and is important in your life. A love that isn’t too much to ask for, but everything you’d put your life in stake for. The kinda love that doesn’t let me be ashamed to be standing next to type love because I believe in them so much that I wouldn’t even have any doubt in my bones about them being that kinda love. And since we’re on the topic of shame, I want that type of love that never ever comes close to doubting and cheating our ways against each other type love because we’re happy with what we’ve got type love. I want the type of love that stands by you through whatever, no matter what. The type of love that brings out the best in both of us. The type of love that lets us be foolish, bad, and crazy in a good way. The type of love that you can’t even begin to describe what kinda love you wanted in the first place because you’re at loss for words from the beauty you’ve found in this other individual. The type of love that doesn’t just throw those three little words, I Love You in the air like it’s suppose to be taken lightly of. This type of love is beyond that because it knows it’s love and not some petty thing that foolish individuals think will keep the relationship in tact. The type of love that doesn’t have to even use those words because the actions spoken to prove that kinda love is already shown and seen. I want the type of love that Shakespeare or any respectable writer would have been proud to speak of in their writing. The type of love that makes everything in your life dance because it’s like this love is the soundtrack to everything great. The type of love that doesn’t let you be afraid, but if it happens to allow any bit of it in, this love will be so strong that it overpowers any negative connotation of fear. I want that type of love that makes hot, passionate- I need you, you’re mine, we’re the love we’ve been wanting and aching for-love. The love that doesn’t get old but knows how to grow type love. The type of love that allows you this growth but still be young type love. The type of love that you never get tired of because its a refreshing kind of love. I want the type of love that you hold onto, flaws and all. The love that is so infinite that this description of the type of love I want doesn’t even fathom its true identity type love. I want the type of love that defines everything I grew up wishing and hoping to find and keep til I’m six feet deep type love. That’s the love I want. That’s the love I need. No one wants petty love and one day, I’m going to find and have this kind of love that’s far from being that. Yup, like that kinda me thinking of me thinking of you type love. i kind of feel comfortable now so i even be fantasizing about walking out on a green light just dying to get hit by a car just so i could lose my memory, get transported to some third world country just to get treated and somehow meet up again with you so i could fall in love with you in a different language and see if it still feels the same type love. i want a love that's as unexplainable as he is."