onehundredninetyfour.

I am so goddamn afraid to even hope for this thing they call "love". I’ve tried putting myself out there, which hadn’t seemed to work out too well, or maybe it just didn't matter, that sort of breaks my heart. Whatever the case may be, my mind feels like its divided into two, what I know is right, and what I know is absolutely wrong. I’m split between wanting to know this person and not wanting to risk the fact that my desire will be in complete vain. I'm tired of trying and getting nothing out of it. By the time I get back from my walk, I hope I have some things figured out.

Forget the risk and take the fall. If it's meant to be then it's worth it all.

**Edit: BTW, AlyssaNicole, this is not who you think this is about. LOL !