fourty.

It’s oh so very difficult to hold off the water works for such an immense amount of time. The tears run gracefully down my face, from time to time with swarming thoughts alongside the crowded mindset I encompass followed by the tear soaked pillows and unrelenting horrendous nightmares. The intensity of it all is just so vast, I can’t handle it anymore. Could it possibly be that I can handle it, but my laziness or preoccupation takes me over, that I just decide to give in and give up? Or is it just that I’m a coward. That I’m scared, foolish, stupid? I have committed myself to more than I should have, more than anyone is capable of doing. It’s just I want too much, and no doubt I am committed to getting it; it’s just that none of it has been successful yet. But you must remember, life is very fragile, and it can easily disappear in a quick second, so it’s better that you enjoy each day god gives you to live and breathe. And I know, I know that it’s so easy to think that you are the only one in the world who is struggling, unsatisfied, frustrated. Sometimes you don’t even notice the others around you because you are so tangled up in your own problems. Don’t worry love, for this feeling is a lie. You can’t just give up because life has gone off course for a day. Please, I beg of you, please won’t you hold on? Fight for yourself, stand up, have the courage to face your problems one more day, just one more day, and soon enough someone will help you find your way, I promise you, and when they arrive, all the bad, the harm, that lack of color, yes it will all disappear, as if it had never existed. That one person can change your life, one soul, one heart, one human being. That is all it takes, to turn your world back around. <3>

Won’t you fly away with me? I promise to fix your broken wings.