onehundredninetynine.

Some days I feel completely happy and satisfied with the way things are going, without a single care in the world. Whereas on other days I catch myself thinking about everything and it just hits me all at once. I start to look past my smile and realize how everything is slowly yet surely, falling apart. how there's so many things I could and should be doing, but I'm not only because I'm too caught up getting involved in other useless shit. What I mean is, I'm sick and tired of wasting my time on people who will end up leaving me hanging in the long run. One after the other, people have f**cked me over along with the fake "friends" who put up a front. I had offered my genuine company and effort but I didn't get anything in return besides the disappointment in myself. Today I learned the true meaning behind Family First. That is when no ones there for you, your family most definitely will be; Despite all the arguments and such you might have on a daily basis. I think its about time I quit my daydreaming and hanging by the thread, setting goals when I'm not doing anything to accomplish them. This is it. I'm getting my shit together, got my priorities straight. Best believe that.

I’m the one that has to die when it’s time for me to die, so let me live my life, the way I want to.